Published on Wednesday August 25, 2004 .
I just got “talked to” by “the man”. Upper management is complaining about my “extended lunch hours”. It doesn’t help that all upper management sit within a 12-foot radius of my desk. Honestly, I don’t really take a lot of extended lunches. Yes I do have the occasional 2-hour lunch, but 98% of the time the issue is that I take my lunch at least a half hour after management does so to them it looks as if I’ve been gone forever. Even so, I get my work done.
I hate working in an office everyday from 9-6. I’d rather have a 6am call time “on location” somewhere in the valley for a TV show or movie. I’d rather work a 12hour day on a movie set. Blah, blah, blah.
Yes I do recognize that I have a problem with authority. Yes I do recognize that I act like a “diva” sometimes in all the jobs I’ve held. I just have this rebellion inside me that is hard to suppress. But I have to play the game because I’ve got bills to pay.
So for the rest of this week I’ll be showing up early, taking shorter lunch breaks and leaving a half hour later - but I will be wearing sleeve-less shirts 
It’s My Prerogative.
RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE
Published on Thursday August 19, 2004 .
I’ve been feeling so un-motivated and un-inspired these past couple of days. Honestly I feel a little lost, stuck in a rut. I think I’m a little burnt out on the struggle of achieving what seems to be impossible. I’m tired of my lame ass day job. I’m tired of working in an office everyday. I’m tired of sitting at my desk, in front of a computer listening to the same 127 songs over and over again. I’m tired of waiting for a casting director to cast me in a commercial, TV show, or movie. I’m tired of not being 180lbs w/ 7% bodyfat. I’m tired of “the journey”. I know I’ve always said that “the journey” is everything in achieving your dreams and goals, but right now my attitude is “f#ck the journey”. I want to begin the journey which starts with me being a working actor who doesn’t need a freaking day job.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not ready to give up. I never will. I’m just tired with a bad attitude.
I’m sitting here at my office desk, drinking black coffee hoping that will give me a lift to more motivation.
Published on Wednesday October 15, 2003 .
Sometimes life feels like it’s moving too fast…
We have contractors starting work on our roof to replace all the shingles. Turns out that even though our roof is only one year old, the last owner of the house had an un-licensed worker install it - and they did a horrible job. Our roof is leaky and we need it replaced so we’re getting the work done now before the rain comes. We are also having another contracter come back to restore the woodwork and re-paint two more rooms downstairs. This guy did an AMAZING job on our dining room so we are using him again. Then there’s the whole issue of exterior paint colors and shingle colors… green or brown, etc, etc…
On another note, Heather’s G4 has a dead ethernet card and it needs to be repaired. Luckily she is between design projects or else I would just have to run to the apple store and buy her a new G5. I still might get her the G5 depending on how bad the problem is to her machine.
My machine is also continuing to have intermittant problems. Sometimes the machine won’t even boot! I tried to diagnose the problem and my suspiscion is either the video card or the mother board. But I no longer have the time or patience to fix it so I’m going to buy a laptop while trying to finish two freelance programming gigs. My cell phone is also dying on me so I will need a new cell as well…
Our old Ford Taurus is also starting to die. We’ve already sank over $1000 into fixing it but we will need to purchase a new vehicle soon…
My creative meeting w/ Dan Kwong for the second performance of “Everything You Ever Wanted to know About Asian Men” went well and now I have to schedule another creative meeting for next week before he leaves for Japan. That also means I need to start editing and working on my piece.
I have an audition tomorrow (today) for Avaya.
I need to reherse my new scene “The Country Girl” with my new partner.
blah, blah, blah….
Did you know Christmas is coming!?!?!?! Stores are already starting to put out Christmas merchandise!
I don’t even have time to put links into this post or even bother to change the posting date to yesterday. Oh well…